In each season of my life so far, I’ve learned something new that deepens my understanding of beauty.
As a child, I begged for an agent because I wanted desperately to act on TV. And I ended up doing just that!
Growing up, I found myself in countless casting directors’ waiting rooms.
I’d be surrounded by 20 other girls who looked just like me, all vying for the same role on a TV show or in a movie or commercial.
In those waiting room moments it became clear that the differences we sometimes wish we could smooth away are the very features that make us memorable. And beautiful.
I also learned that the energy we bring into a room is powerful.
It’s even more powerful than possessing what people would call “classic beauty.”
That energy we put out comes from feeling glowy on the inside.
And then I went to college in New York City.
As a freshman, my dad encouraged me to take a Creative Writing: Nonfiction class.
On one of the first days of the class, we sat in a small, sunny room around a wooden table.
I was wide eyed and full of wonder at the artfulness and resonant truth that the other students (and the greats we read) had woven into their work.
I couldn’t believe how many creative choices we have as we write about what’s true!
From then on, I not only made Creative Writing: Nonfiction my college major, but I became obsessed with uncovering beauty and through-lines in our human experiences.
Post-college, as a traveling indie musician, that theme continued.
I learned the beauty of connecting with people over honest, shared experiences.
Sometimes that meant I was singing about a homeless person I’d met in New York and sometimes the songs were about what true love feels like on an “off day.”
Fast forward a few years and there I was, an accidental documentary producer, working alongside my journalist husband to shoot and release a film.
Making the film gave me a year and a half to look deeply at the origins of some of my most deeply held beliefs. In the process,
I learned the beauty of having goodness at the core of a thing, and not just on the surface.
Real beauty goes deeper than just the surface.
And when the movie was wrapped and released, we sold all of our things and put what was left in backpacks.
We left California to travel the world for a year.
During that year, I learned the beauty of living simply and refusing to accumulate possessions so we’d be free to accumulate rich new experiences.
After seeing beautiful native women and travelers all around the world, I noticed that the most beautiful were the ones who seemed joyful and at peace.
The most beautiful people were the ones with light shining out from the inside - whether they were wearing makeup or not.
Today we’re back from our travels, building both a tiny house and a little baby (due March 2018!)
Being pregnant for the first time and watching how my body changes to help grow this little life has made me feel more beautiful than ever before.
Having life and hope on the inside is a beautiful thing - whether that life is another human being or a light that shines out of you!
We all hunger for a life that feels whole and hopeful. To me, wholeness and hope have a lot to do with beauty.
I couldn’t be more excited to encourage and inspire you to create wholeness, hope and beauty from the inside out. Stick around for loads of fresh inspiration! See you soon on the blog,
Writer / Songwriter / World Traveler / Accidental Documentary Producer